“I don’t know God’s will for my life, what could it be, nah nah, naah” was the mantra of my early to late-ish twenties (without the “nah, nah, nah” part – I just made that up). That question kind of ruled my life until I became completely despondent about life decisions and the like. You know, wake up, drag myself to work, live for fly by sitcoms and cheap stir fries.
Even worse, I’ll start a project or dream a dream and rarely ever finish it. Truth is, after I went through what felt like the worst break-up known to mankind, I just sort of floated.
Yes, I knew God had a purpose for my life after I decided to follow him with my whole being, but I made peace with the fact that that the ever-evasive “Purpose” and I are playing hide and seek and the joke is forever on me.
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How do you know you’re headed in the right direction?
Even if it’s just for a while until it’s time to step away and to something else, you get that good old “aaaah” feeling in your heart that this is where you should be at specific point in time. But how do you get this “aaaah” feeling?
I recently discovered that you cannot not be in God’s will. Actually, it’s kind of impossible. He is sovereign, meaning He is ultimately in control. Which begs the question, why plan and determine what you’re supposed to do if God is going to have His way anyway? I mean, why get up in the morning, if nothing that you do really matters at the end? At the beginning of the year, I had the option of moving to the Eastern Free State and I was confused as hell as to what step to take. I also had to move out of my flat, which I took as a clear sign that my days in Cape Town are counted.
It’s funny how the thing you need to hear the most comes at just the right time. Or as JD from Scrubs would say, “every once in a while a wizard comes along and tells you exactly what you need to hear.” This wizard came in the form of Alexa… but I’ll tell you all about that in a while.
Ropes of navigation
I talked to God and, although I didn’t feel 100% sure, I thought I should take the step and move. I felt I was “over” Cape Town and my time here is done. Then, for no specific reason other than that I thought it was pretty, I bought this rope ring from Dear Rae Jewellery.
While I was still unsure about what to do, a strange peace came over me. Not that I actually made the decision to leave or not (I was supposed to move and therefore make a decision asap), I just knew that everything was going to be okay. A few of my friends knew about the fork in my road, so Alexa sent me this sermon:
At that point I never heard of Tim Keller, but that guy talked straight to my heart that morning. He started talking about a rope that was seen as a navigational tool in the old days. Remember, I bought the ROPE RING just two days before…
Ropes were ways of navigating
The word guidance, according to Keller, in the Hebrew bible was referred to as “für rope”. Ropes were a method of navigation in those days. You use ropes to lower the sails when the wind was in your favour or to move the sails when the wind changed or to raise the sails when the storm came up or when you’re headed in the wrong way.
“How do you get God’s guidance? God’s navigaton? Proverbs provides the answer as you see here the guidance God does, the guidance He gives, and the guidance He purchases for us,” says Keller.
I really want you to listen to the sermon if you’ve been struggling with big life decisions. It gave me so much peace – just knowing that I’m in God’s will although I also have the freedom of choice as His daughter. What a wonderful truth! If you find shelter in Him, all your plans will work out for good. Whether that good is something you wanted or not. And sometimes I’m just grateful that I didn’t get my way.
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In his heart a man plans his course, but the LORD determines his steps. – Proverbs 16:9